cold and anxious

I'm in Pittsburgh now. It is less than 30 degrees almost every day. It is snowing now, something like 7 inches expected... I am leaving for Hawaii on Jan 21. It can't come soon enough.

Xmas was pretty good. Saw family. Saw some friends. Trying to see more before I leave again.

Been smoking tons of bud. Very little xan. Staying with Dad now. Ran out of food a day or 2 ago. He bought me some food, how awesome. I'll give him some money when I leave. I don't want to go out in the cold.

Drank a lot over xmas. Didn't seem problematic. Stayed in an old broken bed. The springs were shot. No one else liked it. I am light. It suited me perfect. Ate much meat over xmas. Seems more problematic.

Seems less "sad" here than expected. Still depressing in the cold. The people kept my mind off it. Not any longer though.

Still no tattoo. Must get started.